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It’s not that I get angry if you care to much. I love that you care, feel me? I wasn’t use to someone caring as much as you besides very FEW family members. I wasn’t use to trusting someone as I trust you with everything. I know I’m small, look helpless, or a child in general but before you, I had to walk everywhere alone or not at any given hour. Through rain, blizzards, hot or cold nights. It didn’t bother me because I was already so use to it. Even if something scary does happen to me, like a strange guy or a dog comes out of no where, I got my 2 legs and can run. On top of that, you say you’ll walk with me everywhere. Honestly yes I do want you doing that, but asking that from another human being isn’t possible. That’s why I push away and say no. My mind tells me no and make you stay or not worry where I am, but my heart is telling me a whole new thing. Honestly how I look at, My mind tells me what I need. What I don’t need. How to stay safe, how to be alone. My heart wants someone to care, my heart wants to be selfish and make you be with me 24/7. My heart wants things. I just shut it up and never speak from my heart because it hurts. The feeling of guilt, the feeling of sadness. My mind set put me into a way to ignore my heart and won’t let them work together. I’ve train myself differently and when people say speak your mind, i very much do. It’s my heart i don’t speak from because of fear. I want you to be there for me. I want you to see my cries. I want you to be able to protect me. I’m asking for to much. I rather be independent because what happens when you leave? What happens if i’m alone all over again? I depended on your so much I broke myself down. Not again, I will maintain myself as my “Mind” for what i need, and open slowly of what i want. Those things that girls have, material things? Yeah i admit i want them but i’ll never ask. Whats given to me is what i’ll take and won’t complain. The only thing you’ll ever hear me ask for is food. Besides that, I’ll get my wants by myself… Somehow or I just won’t get it at all. Human beings it’s natural to want things. I’m tired of hearing words… I just want the action to prove it. That goes out to everyone though. I’m tired of putting a full 100% when I get about 10% back. Sometimes I’m tired of having a big heart and caring for everyone else but myself. Dams, I’m at a lost for words. Fuck. adding on this later -_-“

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